Samhain Intentions

7even sat
1)      Clean water
2)      Resources for learning
3)      No knee-pain this morning
4)      Supportive friends
5)      My poetic abilities
6)      The opportunities to connect
7)      A safe place to sleep

Firstly, Happy New Year! May it bring wonderful people, amazing lessons and may you enjoy it.

This is traditionally a time of reflection; between the second [Autumnal Equinox] and final harvest [Samhain] of the year. For me, it’s also a time of clearing and quiet; of gaining knowledge and insight, of watching; taking in the details and appreciating the changing world as the earth falls into slumber.

I’ve felt as though in a space of transition the last 2-3 weeks or so, and this was aided my reflection. I’ve been looking at my blog and really thinking about where I intend to take you in the next year; where I want to go.

Let’s start with where am I now; my major themes here appear to surround:

Healthy eating

My degree

Cleansing space

Minimizing needs

Planning of personal goals

Then, where had I planned to go up to now? My original aims had been to share my life as a Spiritual Being and thus I’d hoped to write about:

Common spiritual topics (2012- Nostradamus, Community, Paths within Paganism, Pagan Parenting), My own experiences [especially now I’m a part of some spiritual community] and topics I wished to learn more about or had something to share/teach about.

As a dragonfly, I constantly find myself within a chrysalis and don’t feel much like a nymph anymore. I’m working on exploring this a bit more and hope you’ll bare with me a little as I really embrace this transition.

This leaves me with this years aims. Through this coming year, I hope to speak a little more about the spirituality of my days; and hope to incorporate a few new habits.

So far, the time since my birthday in August has brought about the simple theme of connections, and that’s where I’ve decided to begin this year.

I understand that without my goals being concrete steps, they’re only dreams. Therefore I provide a small breakdown of my goals for the coming year:

* Daily Spiritual Practise [or at least weekly]

* 30,000 words by 30 November

* Blog Weekly

* Ritual for each festival

* Cut down on junk food

* Keep taking 5-a-day

* Some for of weekly movement [dance, free-weights ]

I know a list that long is unusual and I’ve not before had luck with intentions, but I’ve nothing to lose by trying to incorporate these.

What are your plans for the coming year?

~Rose

Lammas

Summer 116Blessed Lughnasadh everybody and Happy Harvest for the non-Pagans.

Don’t worry, I’ll make an effort to keep the jargon to a minimum.  In lay-person’s terms, this is the festival of thanks-giving and harvesting. We reap the rewards of seeds we’ve sown – whether it be corn or patience, perseverance or gratitude. The length of a day is waning and we come together to watch as the sun sets.

So, I’ve been clearing out clutter a bit in order to make space for harvest. This is the festival of the First harvest; but I’m a bit behind and consider this my Spring cleaning.
On the side of connecting spiritually, I’ve just about sorted myself out with an evening routine, cultivating the ten minutes I can find between brushing my teeth and turning out my bedroom light. I sleep with music playing (my CD player has a timer and is programmed to turn itself off to save energy), and before I set the timer, I sit cross-legged on my bed and just breathe. I try to sit up straight, but relaxed, and just feel the music. I then try to concentrate on my energy field. I used to play around with it daily and I’d like to get back to at least being able to sense it again.  I’ve started to make energy balls again (I believe that’s an exercise suggestion in The Spiral Dance by Starhawk??), which I used to do a couple of times a week.
For those who haven’t done it, the closest I can describe is that it’s like magnets. If you push two magnets together with the same poles facing each other (N-N; S-S), you get repulsion. The force fights your effort to touch the two ends together. That’s how my hands feel – like there’s almost some other force pushing against my palms, so I can’t let them join.  And as with magnets, this can be overcome with more movement and force of my hands. It is, in fact, very possible to touch my palms together; but there’s still something to fight against. 

Then I do 10-15 press ups; as I’m trying to work on my arm strength, and I say goodnight to my deities with a prayer of thanks for the day I’ve had.

Summer 021Today, I bought a pale blue taper candle for my wondrous new candle-holder, pictured above (anniversary gift from my husband- he has an identical one, so once we live together, they can be a pair like us); and started to clear some more clutter from my desk. It took me an hour to go through all my old pens and throw out non-working ones/put them aside for giving away. On the bright side though, I now have one pen pot with all the essentials in it. It’s practical and somewhat more grown up. I’m hoping it’ll motivate me to work a bit more this year.  I even had a thought to donate some of my books to charity shops; but got to about 6 books in the charity bag and then gave up, for fear of breaking my heart.

I finished Reinvent Yourself (8) by Fiona Harrold and I’ve narrowed down my items for my University Alter in September – for instance, this little statue of mine ^_^ Isn’t he gorgeous??

Stars Bless,

Rose.

Session Two

bookshelfI’d written yet another post (a very long one at that), focusing on the same issues I’ve mentioned in the last couple of posts, mainly my lack of congruence. It’s like I’m trying to be ever-more clear each time I write them out; as if suddenly you’ll all understand and comment; this being the easy (and unrealistic) solution I hope for.

I’ve decided to ditch the post; to stop reinforcing the labels behind them. So; I figured I should write a post about my reading challenge. I think my last update was two weeks ago today; and was sort of two weeks from the beginning of the challenge.
So; I’ve technically had 4/13 weeks  to read, and I’ve completed 6 of my 53 books… I’m determined that I can raise that to 8 finished books by Tuesday 3rd August.

I can’t seem to stop buying new books or finding more to add to the list, but never mind. I’m still only aiming for 25 and might even lower it to 20 now I have a job that will take up around 13 hours a week (16 this week, including travelling time).

I’m over halfway through The Celestine Prophecy (1) by James Redfield and today found myself re-starting Reinvent Yourself (8) by Fiona Harrold. I’m over half way through it now and have over 4 A4 pages of writing from the exercises used to get everything clear in your mind.

Yesterday, I used my staff discount to buy Chicken Soup for the Soul (50) (mentioned in The Secret, if you’ve seen/read it). So I’m adding that to my list (see the tab Summer Challenge at the top right-hand side of this page). I also completed The Bell Jar (47) over the course of 2 days.

Looking forward to Lammas; not 100% sure what I’ll do for it, but it’ll likely be something short and simple, as I can’t guarantee even half an hour where I won’t be disturbed. I’m starting to really get down about missing the Anderida Gorsedd ritual on Sunday; but it wouldn’t be practical to get there, nor would my parents like me missing roast dinner and coming home after 8pm, alone (it would likely be past 9pm before I arrived at the station).

I’ll put up some form of post about what I get up to; however small.

Stars Bless,

Rose.

Alban Hefin

Today I went to the Anderida Gorsedd Open Druid Ritual. I’ve never been on my own, and only been once before. I dislike public transport and had to change trains and switch to bus, before meeting people I didn’t know/only barely recognised.

I had the most fantastic time. I’m feeling courageous. I saw quite a few rabbits on the journey; which are a symbol of facing fears. Walked over to a group I vaguely recognised from the Beltain celebration and we walked up together. It was so nice to feel included.
I thought that this circle would be a little less light due to the lack of sexual puns (not being a fertility ritual) but even then, I was wrong.

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 It’s the Summer Solstice. It’s been a fabulous year. Coming to Sussex has been an adventure and a half.  When I thought of the wondrous atmosphere at campus and decided I had to be a part of that energy, I never thought I’d find myself as a student of Dahm the Bard; of Druidry; Never saw myself attending rituals alone.  Even though he doesn’t teach us as such; I learn so much from these. My main lesson has been that these are people too. They struggle through cancer and deaths, wounds and lay-offs. They’re humans, full of feeling and creativity.

 One day I hope to be able to have the courage to sing in the Eistfordd; but one step at a time. I’ve planned the song but need to learn the words and find my strength first. My next open ritual will likely be 20th September, which makes me sad. I’ve no idea how I felt so connected before. But I look forward to it and know I have nothing to be afraid of there. I’m safe and strong. 

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I’m Connected, to this family of friends, sharing their paths with mine.

Blessed Solstice.

~Celestial Rose.

 *~* Alban Hefin – the Druid festival of the Summer Solstice, loosely translated as ‘The Light of the Shore’.
 *~* Eisteddfod (plural Eisteddfodau)– A Bardic festival and competition of the performing arts, from the Welsh, meaning ‘a session or assembly’. Usually opened with a Druid ceremony

3 Beltaines

Even with all my knowledge and my experiences, I learnt a great deal about the Pagan community this weekend. It may be partly because this is a specific festival of celebration, but I expected the rituals to be a lot more formal than they were.

Because they weren’t, I felt more comfortable being there.

Saturday I attended a Wiccan ritual in a High Priestesses garden and Sunday I was invited to the Anderida Gorsedd Druid Open Circle. The weather was wonderful for both rituals and the Long Man was fantastic. I can’t believe I met Dahm the Bard and even got a hug from him. After hearing Sue, the Purple Pixie, talk about him so much over the past 2 years, I was ecstatic and really had to concentrate on not jumping around like a child. His energies were fantastic. Then again, that’s true of most of the people I met. They truly are amazing people. The women had battled so much and to feel so connected with them was fantastic.

Being able to reaffirm my Beltaine wishes on Saturday by jumping over the Beltaine fire and again Sunday with the Promise circle, it really has been a fantastic opportunity.  It would have been nice to see some of things the other Wiccan circle members did, but perhaps it would have been an information overload.

I’ve made a commitment to myself to be more active in the pagan community and to be open to any public worship I’m invited to. Having done my own solitary ritual on Friday the first of May, I’m ready for a rest from ritual for a couple of days.

I seem to have also made a friend I can see myself learning a lot from. Marie attends the same University as me, and was taught the Old Ways by her great-grandmother; a wonderful wise woman. When I’m around her, I feel like I’m more aware of myself, and when she’s around me, she claims to feel more like her great-grandmother. Knowing.

I met her at the Wiccan Circle and she came with me to the Druid circle.  I’m looking forward to getting to know her better and as I said in the circle, to never stop learning.

Moon Bless.
~Rose.

Beltain 2009

Blessed Beltane/Beltaine/Beltain/May Day, one and all.

My Beltain in 100 words or less:
9am gorgeous cloudless blue sky, warm sunlight.. 
Lectures finished at
1pm = threatening to rain, cold and no sky in sight behind the clouds.
4pm, after Beltain Ritual indoors; blue sky returns and the sunlight tumbles in.

 Sods law much? =)

 I also used muffins and diet coke in the stead of mead and oatcakes, because improvisation is my middle name.

How did you celebrate today?

 Makeshift alter for today:

Bells, Ribbons, Apple, Muffins, Coke, Books and Flowers.

Bells, Ribbons, Apple, Muffins, Coke, Books and Flowers.

 I’ve been invited to my first open circle in Brighton tomorrow which should be fantastic. I’ll let you know how it goes.

I’ve also got a post I need to edit from Thursday’s meditation session which I’ll be putting up soon.

 Moon Bless,
~Rose.

Preparations

Beltain is fast approaching and I’ve not a real plan of my celebrations. Possibly just some nature and meditation time.  I’ll be reflecting on my goals from last year and making a new list. What are you all doing?

 Meditation was cancelled on Monday night, but Yana and I are hoping to join a second course/group on Thursday. I’ve found a few people I actually feel like I can almost be myself around and I’m going out with them tonight.

 I’ve been slowly doing a little bit of energy work again. I did it automatically by summer of 2004 but have gotten out of the habit. I’m planning to make it a part of my morning routine again. We’ll see how it goes.

 My basil’s not 100% happy, but my window faces East and I don’t get up with the sun, so it’s doing well considering. I used it in cooking today for the first time and will use it again with dinner.

 If anyone’s interested, I took this quiz earlier and it made me smile. The questions are.. very strange, but most of it’s true to me.

You Scored as Earth-ChildYou’re a very peaceful person who has very strong beliefs. Others see you as spiritual, and you really are. You see magic as a resource to be used wisely. The earth really is your mother, and you’ll remain close to her as long as you live. 

 

Earth-Child
 
88%
One Intelectual Individual
 
75%
New Age Hippie
 
75%
Not a Hippie
 
50%
Original Hippie
 
25%
Pothead
 
0%

 

 

I hope you’re having a blessed week and may the Gods guide you,
~Rose.