-sigh- It’s a wonderful day outside. I’m listening to a happy song, my beautiful best friend over in the US graduated yesterday; I’m on my forth glass of rosé wine. Everything’s pretty good. Leave for Ireland in just under a week. Moved out of University accommodation yesterday; my room’s covered in boxes and stuff. I wish I had less stuff – it’s all got these sentimental meaning or is impractical to give/throw away/recycle. But I’ve not much room.
My last night as a fresher was wonderful. I had my last exam, had dinner and we went out to a club in Brighton we’d not been to. I came back and my friend S was waiting outside my door. We lay on my bed and fell asleep there and he left after 1pm. I haven’t had a friend to sleep over in years and it was nice to just chat with him. Won’t see him, Marie or Yana until September and that makes me a little sad.
But I’ve planned some paintings, and you should see my booklist! I’m sure I’ve only half of it written out so far; but I’ll add to it over the next couple of weeks. =) It’s mainly books I’ve started, but haven’t gotten around to finishing yet. This is it so far:
- Celestine Prophecy
- An Enchanted Life
- The Kingdom of Infinite Space: a fantastical journey around your head
- City Dharma
- Bushido: The Way of the Samurai
- The Big Book of Me
- The Wind is my Mother
- Reinvent Yourself: 7 steps to a fresh new you
- Heaven’s Net is Wide
- Oath Breaker
- The Biology of Belief
- Neuro-linguist Programming for Dummies
- The Field
- The Secret
- Hunter’s Moon
- Nothing Special: Living Zen
- Buddhism: plain and simple
- Living Paganism: an advanced guide for the solitary practitioner
- The Black Stallion Mystery
- The Te of Piglet
- A Woman’s Guide to the Earth Traditions
- True Magick
- Soul Secrets
- Happiness: a 30-day guide that will last you a lifetime
- Soul Signs
- Change Your Life in 7 Days
- The Wind Singer
- The Tibetan Art of Serenity
- Wild Magic (Immortals)
- Wolf Speaker (Immortals)
- Emperor Mage (Immortals)
- The Realms of the Gods (Immortals)
- A Short History of Nearly Everything
- Natural Witchcraft
- The Real Witches Handbook (Kate West)
- Psycholinguistics: A resource book for students
- The Spiral Dance
- Becoming the Enchanter
- The Consolations of Philosophy
- Endless Path: Buddhism
Geeze. That’s a lot of books.. And I don’t think it’s complete yet.. I guess it shows some themes, eh? Fantasy, Animals, Physics, Psychology, Biology, Self-Help, Self-sufficiency and Alternative Religion (Paganism/Buddhism). I hadn’t quite realised there were so many.. Some were gifts (no. 27, for eg). The one’s I’ve started but never finished I think are probably a main reason I managed to recover from my clinical depression so well. They put me in touch with that hope I couldn’t always reach. =P well.. that’s a lot to read but 2.5 months is a lot of time. Though a week of that will be taken to find homes for the contents of these boxes and pack and then a week will be spent in Ireland.. I’m meant to be finding a job; but due to the economic status; we’ll have to see. I’ve got work experience at a prison for a day;; hoping to try and get a second day with that too.
I also want to read Edgar Allan Poe’s prose work: Eureka. It’s nearly 40,000 words long, I believe and I’ve barely read the first 4-5 lines; but found them poetic enough. It was mentioned in the Physics elective I took during Spring and Summer and after reading those couple of lines I knew I’d have to give it my full attention.
Once I’ve finished perhaps.. 10 of those works mentioned above, I hope to find a copy of the Mists of Avalon and read that. I also intend to read the sequels to Celestine Prophecy. I believe one’s called “The Tenth Insight”? I couldn’t be bothered to write every author out; but feel free to leave a comment asking for any of the authors or if you think you’ve read any of these, let me know how you found them.
I’ve been in a creative mood lately – two finished watercolours, I’ve made a new necklace from two broken ones and mended a skirt. I’m trying to clear some ‘stuff’ so I can live that vision I once had; which I’ve mentioned in a previous post.
It’s hard to let go of things I’ve grown up with though. A party of me wishes I’d been brought up more like my husband. With the minimal.
Having said that, he has a PS2 and I’ve never had a gameboy; but on the other hand, I’ve a tv, cd player/radio/cassette player, pc and laptop in my room now and been offered the freeview box. –sigh-.
A self-sufficient, sustainable life is miles away but dammit; I’m aiming for it regardless.
Speaking of sustainability, that reminds me of authenticity. I need a nickname for a new friend, S. Something tells me, he’s going to be an important person in my life. We met a few weeks back and we were attracted to the fact that we both seem some-what authentic in this society of media-driven, make-up hidden people.
While clearing space in my room, I found these magnetic earrings and I’ve been wearing them all day to get used to idea of having pierced ears. They make me feel free. That kind of hippy-gypsy feeling I love. They make me feel authentic. I guess, simply put. They make me smile.
And that’s all that matters.
P.S. Oh, and if I had to sum up my first year of university in one song that reminds me of the experience, it’d be this one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLYD_-A_X5E&feature=player_embedded